About

Background

I'm a Japanese national living abroad. I studied law — no background in art, aside from the drawing every child does in elementary school.

As an adult, I started drawing and painting with my kids, using crayons and acrylics. Around that time, I happened to become friends with a professional painter, and we started painting in oils together.

The first painting — and the lie that revealed something
 
 
Jan 2020
First oil painting — painted with a professional friend. I had pretended to him that I was an experienced oil painter, boasting that I had been a serious painter when I was younger and had simply forgotten the techniques. In reality: I had zero experience and zero training. I had lied to impress him. I simply painted what I saw.
 
 
Years later
My friend never questioned the result — he believed I was experienced, so he wasn't surprised.
 
Jan 2026
I admitted the truth. He paused: wait. That reaction was what led me to start questioning whether my visual experience matches the human default.
What I'm actually claiming

I'm not claiming the result was skillfully done — that's not the point. What I think is worth recording is narrower than that: I had never heard the word "sfumato," had no art training, and had no idea that painters spend years learning to render soft, edgeless transitions of light and shadow instead of hard outlines. I wasn't imitating a technique I didn't know existed. I simply painted the scene the way it looked to me, and it came out that way — because that's how I see.

I wasn't imitating a technique I didn't know existed. I simply painted the scene the way it looked to me.
It looks hereditary

I still can't prove this. For now, the paintings are the closest thing I have to a record, so I'll keep posting them here. It also looks hereditary, though I can't prove that either.

 
Father
 
Uncle
 
Sister
 
Children
 
Mother — exception

My father, my uncle, my sister, and my children all seem to share it. My mother is the only exception in my family — everyone else appears to lack illusions and see edges the same soft, sfumato way I do.

These are notes I've written in Japanese — everyday observations about how my vision differs from others', along with some personal thoughts on painting, from someone with no formal art background.

https://note.com/k0x47

English is not my first language, so please excuse any awkward phrasing.

If you have thoughts, questions, or relevant research, I'd like to hear from you.heartmail

 

This is the first still life I ever painted. I had no training, no knowledge, no drawing experience — I simply tried to paint exactly what I saw. This drawing was the turning point that made me realize how differently I perceive the world. I have no technical training. But think about this: can someone with zero practice or knowledge actually draw this on their very first try? 😢

This is genuinely how the world looks to me, so I simply tried to reproduce what I saw using oil paints as closely as possible. I wasn't trying to make it look particularly beautiful or adding any interpretation like that whatsoever. I painted exactly what I saw—that's all.

 

This is the subject I used for the painting.

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